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Showing posts with label life's lessons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life's lessons. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

What A Difference A Week Can Make



It was just around a week ago that I was so ill and confused that I wasn't making much sense most of the time. I will never forget going to the gas station because my gas tank was showing the empty warning. I wanted to drive myself to the Grief Share meeting the next evening which was only four miles from home. Well, anyway about a week ago when I went to get the gas I was not able to do the simple activity that I have probably done hundreds or more times. My brain was so scrambled in that a good person nearby observed and offered to help me. I was so appreciative! And, then I headed home which was very nearby.  My blood pressure was still in the "danger-danger zone" at 172/107.

Today, is a really nice day. My blood pressure this AM is 139/88 and has been in the normal range for a few days and I am starting to feel like the self that I know. I am continuing to closely monitor my BP readings and my current medication dosages.  I am so Happy and Grateful with this very noticeable improvement

My response and recovery with the Grief process is going so much better. And, I will be going to my weekly Grief Share meeting. The weekend was good but I still have to limit what I do and where I go. I have been able to start to take care of lots of things here at home, like sorting stuff and organizing. And, very short periods of time in the yard. You know those leaves keep falling! But, I can't do anything to demanding. Friends have been so very helpful with their emotional support and offers of help.

My heart and body are filling with peace. Progress - but a long way to go. I am beginning to think "You can't keep an ol" gal down for very long".

I am hoping to start planning with others, A Tribute To The Memory of my friend at our church for our little community and church family. More on that as it evolves.

This little sign hung in Bud's home office!


I would like to share a little poem that I recently came across in my continual search that is driven by my intense curiosity about most every thing.

Gone Fishing 
I've finished life's chores assigned to me
So put me on a boat headed out to see
Please send along my fishing pole
For I've been invited to the fishin' hole

Where every day is a day to fish
To fill your heart with every wish
Don't worry, or feel sad for me
I'm fishing' with the Master of the sea

We will miss each other for awhile
But you will come and bring your smile
That won't be long you will see
Till we're together you and me

To all of those that think of me
Be happy as I go out to sea
If others wonder why I'm missin'
Just tell 'em I've gone fishin'
                       by Dalmar Pepper


2011-2013





A Tired Happy Fisherman - Not bad for 85 - yes, that is years!

Wishing you a Warm and Cozy Day - especially if your weather conditions are harsh!

Mary

Friday, January 23, 2015

What Does Nursing Have To Do With It

Spending so much time at the hospital lately reminded me of so many of my nurse life experiences. And, importantly, it certainly helped me to be the best I could be, especially when "my nurse mode kicked in" at times that were extremely difficult with damaged family dynamics and unwanted outsider involvement which my friend chose to ask to "graciously bow out and leave". However, the presence of a spiritual advisor from our church was fabulous. Together we were able to "calm the waters" with God's guidance.

I am so blessed to have had my past nurse life experiences and the support of others!  


*Written during prior week* My emotions are still very raw and I am very sad, feeling alone and devastated. I am trying to put as many pleasant memories in my thinking as possible. But at the same time I am trying to be patient with myself. It seems that I have had so very many losses in my life. At the present time my lovely Granddaughter and family are the only family that are involved in my life*.

But, there is great joy in my heart that my friend was able to make peace with his life and behaviors through the guidance of our Church Pastor-Spiritual Advisor.


Blessings.

Mary


Thursday, July 17, 2014

Who Is Wearing That Pink Accessory


Can you believe that this lady was in the ER about 3 hours after I made my visit on July 4th. That may not seem strange to you but the fact that she is the Pastor of my church makes it quite a coincidence. And, she was at the same event (First Friday's Music In The Park) that I was planning on attending. The live music was presented by Starburst Cowboys. She injured her Achilles tendon while dancing to the music words, "Strapping Leather?". What a story! And she loves to tell the story!

I was not there, so I am not sure of the exact music lyrics.  But, perhaps it was written by Daniel Lanois, a Canadian record producer, guitarist, vocalist and songwriter. Isn't google amazing? Rather interesting lyrics for us folk here in the Gold Country. But then, who really hears all the lyrics in a venue like the park? 

If you didn't know by now, Yes, I am a person with a big curiosity. And, I have a lot of time these days since I fractured a bone in my leg.

Here are some interesting lyrics.

Duo-Glide by Daniel Lanois

Peyote Jill rides the night
She sees her past in starlight
She hears a voice deep inside of her
Leather strapping, wheel burning power
Moves to the shimmy and tremble ride
Under the guide of her duo glide

On her duo glide, her duo glide
Her duo glide, her duo glide

She wants her land back from the thieves
And she wants her song in the trembling leaves
Harmonizing free from Columbus
Rid of stench and gold rush
Wants the jail house broken for Leonard Peltier
And ride the red dirt propel all the way

On her duo glide, duo glide
Duo glide, her duo glide
Her duo glide, duo glide
Duo glide, her duo glide

Read more at http://www.songlyrics.com


Now, back to my "Pink Cast" story. On Friday, when we were finished with my appointment at the Orthopedic office when my cast was applied, we met the "pink cast" friend in the reception room. Another coincidence! We had a few good laughs and then I shared the information about the Knee Scooter. Subsequently, she was able to get a scooter, also.

After we perfect our skills in "scooter speed" we should be able to race down the church aisle

Be careful all of you out there or you may be able to join us in our race. If you don't find humor and laugh, you know what can happen?














Have some fun today.

Mary

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Look What Happened

- - - On the 4th of July afternoon when I was going from my dining room into the garage. The garage is a "step down" from the dining room and I caught the right toe of my shoe on the door thresh-hold.  When I landed on the floor in the garage my right foot was still on the level of the dining room. I had to pick up my right foot gently to move it to the same level I was sitting on the floor of the garage. PAINFUL - VERY!

Then I crawled on my knees to the freezer drawer (bottom of refrigerator) to get an ice pack. Next, I crawled down the hallway to the bedroom to get an Ace Bandage. After crawling to the living room sofa, I sat down - elevated my leg - applied the ice pack and stabilized it by wrapping my ankle and lower leg with the Ace Bandage. Then I took a DEEP BREATH and gathered my thoughts, like "What just happened to me?" Next, I had to crawl to get the telephone. I called my friend and said "I think I broke my leg and have to go to the ER"! X-rays were taken and yes, I fractured the fibula (smallest of the two bones) of my right lower leg. They applied a splint, gave me crutches and sent me on my way with orders to avoid any weight bearing with my right foot and to contact the Orthopedic Surgeon on Monday.


REMARKABLY, I had and currently have very little pain following the actual PAINFUL event. I am SO BLESSED! Perhaps, getting the ice applied so quickly helped control swelling and helped with pain level. I was scheduled to see the Ortho on Friday. This is what it looked like when the splint was removed on Friday.


A cast (PURPLE) was applied and next appointment is in four weeks. And, no weight bearing during the four weeks. Needless to say, all of this is very exhausting and their is some discomfort when trying to attend to necessary activities of living!
  
Since crutches were not liked by my 74 years old arm muscles and a wheelchair is very difficult to deal with I asked about  a knee scooter. Wow, is that a "God Send"! More about the scooter later, maybe.



That's all for this time. My energy level is quite low. Hope to write more in near future.

Wishing Beautiful Enjoyable summer days to all of you.

Mary

Monday, March 05, 2012

My Bluebird Returns

The reality is that he never left.


But, was sitting nearby waiting for me to learn some new lessons that would make me a stronger, healthier person.  It is a nice refresher lesson to know that Happiness is so close if we just pay attention. Getting caught up in destructive behaviors serves no value but if we learn something helpful it is less painful. 

Listen! I think I can hear him singing!

We have had a couple beautiful sunny days.  I was out  'n' about and it was in the high seventies.  The Quince is blooming. Fabulous!

If interested, this is a little story about my tattoo ~ Hello Bluebird.


Thursday, March 01, 2012

If Nothing Ever Changed There'd Be No Butterflies

I see the Butterflies. And, what a good feeling. I have started to "re-enter society" and WOW! The love I have received is making me feel breathless.


My stomach issues are healing and my body and mind have returned to a place of peacefulness and calm. I have been able to discontinue one of the medications that the Gastroenterologist prescribed. My healthy dietary regime has made a huge improvement in my overall health.

I am so happy to tell you that my epidural injections have continued to give me relief from the nerve pain (which is different from other pain) in my left leg. Occasionally, when I get up in the morning I feel some familiar unwanted sensations but it is minimal and soon disappears. It has been five weeks and what a difference it has made in my life. Along with all the other good changes in my life the absence of nerve pain is really "the frosting on the cake". I continue to experience periodic back pain but it is very tolerable.

I am continually assessing what I will do with my gardening when the season changes. Generally, I would be getting anxious to get out there and "get to work". It really isn't the work that excites me but the RESULT of my efforts. In addition, the WONDERFUL SUNSHINE has always been a magnet and eases Seasonal Affective Disorder. However, since the large diseased oak tree outside my living room window was removed I have felt profoundly better than in the past. The additional natural light in my house has been a great blessing. 

It is nice that I have documented my previous gardens with photos and I can revisit "my garden" any time I wish.
 
Watch Carefully ~~~ You may see some butterflies


Sunday, February 19, 2012

I Am On My Way


And, I Don't Want To Look Back!  More than three weeks ago, after serious consideration I made an important decision. My story is no different than so many other people. But, I must say that I have put my heart and soul into a relationship that looked very promising at the onset. First off, meeting at church seemed like a good start!  Soon after, Love Is (Was) In The Air.   But, soon the love disintegrated before my eyes while we were on a Foreign Travel vacation! I believe it is so true that most of the time  "The BEST predictor of FUTURE behavior is PAST behavior". And, abusive behavior is unacceptable.

The next chapters in this drama are nothing new or different from many troubled relationships of  human dynamics. Simply put, this has been - dysfunction - dysfunction - and more dysfunction!  I am not a quitter, BUT, two years is long enough and there was nothing more I could do to bring sanity to the situation. Sadly, I was quickly losing my health. And, you can't put a price on health. God was speaking "loudly" to me.  And, he got my attention!

I have diligently worked throughout the past many years to be the best that I can be.  And, striving to live an authentic life takes courage and honesty.  Two guiding words regarding life that I find very important are OPEN and HONEST.  And, I expect that quality in a partner. I verbalized the importance of these two words from the very beginning. 

So, now I look toward the future and thank God for the positive aspects of the past two years, because there were many. And, I wish the best and blessings for him and his family. When two people are not good for each other - - - MOVE ON.

I will always be a work in progress and I clearly have more personal growth to pursue.    Nearly a year and a half ago, on September 10, 2010, I posted the following entry and I believe it is relevant again today.

What Is The Lesson I Am To Learn

"Life has never been easy - and probably isn't for most of us. Why would I accept a life situation that can only create stress and disappointment? This could possibly be a universal question for a lot of people in this world. But, right now, it is my question to MYSELF. I had high hopes that this new relationship would be a HEALTHY relationship! I thought I was being cautious when this new chapter started in my life. But, it looks like I have only revisited some previous familiar issues that I thought I had learned lessons from. However, I was truly blind-sighted. But wait, I have learned a lot and because of that I am able to move forward with strength and balance that I have not always had in the past. The realization that there are some issues that just can not be resolved to an acceptable level is a difficult position to be in. But, it looks like the time has come for me to wake up and accept reality. During the past seven months I have had plenty of time to experience and assess the changes in my life as the result of having this man in my life. With the review of the pros and cons (written on paper) it is very clear to me what the best next step for me will be. I have been loving, patient, kind, supportive and understanding with this man. But, there comes a time when "band aid therapy"  is not the answer and the GORILLA is still sitting in the middle of the room.  And, the gorilla is as simple to see as this - - - -

I can not say anything - to any of you that have experienced alcoholism in the people close to you - that you don't already know. There is no point in giving specifics. The latest disturbing behavior from this man would not shock many of you. But, I thought it was "way over the top". I do not think very many families are totally void of addiction of one kind or another. My ex-husband who I had ten wonderful family years with before he became an active alcoholic (died at age 47 of alcoholic toxicity) and my son is an alcoholic and not in Recovery.

I have strived and succeeded at living a fulfilling, happy and mentally healthy life with joy and friends and I do not choose to live my life with alcoholism in my home and life. With the support of friends and some new friends I know I will be just fine. The days ahead will be difficult but I will live one day at a time and with my glass "Half Full".  If you believe in prayer, I would appreciate your prayers for all concerned."

Life is good! And will get better when he accepts that we are no longer together. I may have to take legal actions if he doesn't start to come to reality and leave me alone.  As I have noted in this blog, my health has been very negatively effected by being in such a "toxic relationship". The harassment is interfering with my health improving and I am anxious to get well.

I am happy to be back in blogland and look forward to sharing the joys in my life along with projects that I anticipate having time to pursue.  I have continued to enjoy your blogs and found inspiration from many, and especially  45 Lessons Life Taught Me.  And, then Plus 5. Thank you!

I wish you a Fabulous Day.



 

Friday, September 10, 2010

What Is The Lesson I Am To Learn

Life has never been easy -  and probably isn't for most of us.  Why would I accept a life situation that can only create stress and disappointment?  This could possibly be a universal question for a lot of people in this world.  But, right now, it is my question to MYSELF. I had high hopes that this new relationship would be  a HEALTHY relationship!  I thought I was being cautious when this new chapter started in my life. But, it looks like I have only revisited some previous familiar issues that I thought I had learned lessons from.  But wait,  I  have learned a lot and because of that I am able to move forward with strength and balance that I have not always had in the past. The realization that there are some issues that just can not be resolved to an acceptable level is a difficult position to be in.  But, it looks like the time has come for me to wake up and and accept reality. During the past seven months I have had plenty of time to experience and assess the changes in my life as the result of having this man in my life. With the review of the pros and cons (written on paper) it is very clear to me what the best next step for me will be. I have been loving, patient, kind, supportive and understanding with this man.  But, there comes a time when "band aid therapy" is not the answer and the GORILLA is still sitting in the room.  And, the gorilla is as simple to see as this  - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - > Glitter Graphics | http://www.graphicsgrotto.com






I can not say anything - to any of you that have experienced alcoholisn in the people close to you -  that you don't already know. There is no point in giving specifics. The latest disturbing behavior from this man would not shock many of you.  But, I thought it was "way over the top".  I do not think very many families are totally void of addiction of one kind or another. My ex-husband was an alcoholic (died at age 47 of alcoholic toxicity) and my son is an alcoholic (not in recovery)!

I have strived and succeeded at living a fulfilling, happy and mentally healthy  life with joy and friends and I do not choose to live my life with alcoholism in my home and life. With the support of friends and some new friends I know I will be just fine.  The days ahead will be difficult but I will live one day at a time and with my glass "Half Full".  If you believe in prayer, I would appreciate your prayers.

I do not know how much I will be posting in the near future but I know I will continue to enjoy your blogs.  My hand/wrist continues to be a problem for me and I am scheduled for an EMG in the near future.

Blessings to All.

Friday, August 06, 2010

The Chair

Embarrassing - to say the least. This is the story about the chair! I can not believe I am writing about this and telling exactly what happened. But, here goes.


See the arrows that I have marked on the photo. The iron rods on the base of the chair slips into the hollow rods under the seat of the chair seat/back section. And, then there is a hole at the end of the iron rod to place a screw , so the two chair sections are secure and do not come apart when the chair is moved or if you want to rock. See the circular iron on the chair base. It provides the flexibility for the rocking motion. Got all that?

Well, now I will try to tell you the bizarre part of the incident.  I had spray painted the two chairs and table which I purchased in 1974 (yes, that date is correct) a while back because they needed freshening up.  I had not replaced the screws because they were very rusty and I wanted to purchase new screws.  The chairs were assembled (like the next photo) and were very secure and very sturdy as long as you did not move the chair.  I cautioned My Special Man about the chair and then a proceeded to sit down in the second chair.  We were discussing the screws and that I needed to buy new screws.  During the discussion, I wanted to show him something about the matching table and I absentmindedly tried to move my chair back not realizing that I was slipping the seat back off of the base iron rod. Thus, I fell straight back hitting my head on the cement. What you can see in the photo above is the position of the chair/seat as I lay on the cement patio floor.  It was a forceful impact on my head!

This is what we bought yesterday and the chairs will be "fully assembled" ASAP. And, the knob for adjusting the height of the table will also be replaced with the new one.


I can not tell you how horrible I feel about the whole incident.  I am just very thankful that the injury did not happen to someone else.   That is such a blessing.  And, I am blessed that my recovery is progressing nicely!  It was such a reminder to SLOW DOWN AND THINK.


I hope you have a Safe and Health Day.

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Taking A Break


Needless to say, my life has been in quite a lot of turmoil as of late. I think it is best for me to take a little break from regular blogging. New challenges have been put before me that need all of my attention. The man in my life has asked for my forgiveness and requested that I attend couple-counseling to resolve the serious issues we experienced recently. He scheduled an appointment with someone we agreed upon and we have been attending. 

I am strong in my belief that actions are more important then words! God is giving me strength day by day and I am healing in body and spirit, but it is slow. I carry no expectations and I am living in the moment as much as possible. TRUST is a huge word for me at this time ! ! ! 

On a lighter note. I think the next image pretty well depicts how empty I have been feeling. I am working on filling my self with everything that makes me the person that I have been and the person I want to be.  

I guess that really was not on a lighter note - but the image really spoke to me when I saw it. Can you tell, I am just "plain ol' tired".

Thank you for all the support and love from blogging friends. 


 


I hope all of you are having Happy Wonderful Summer Days.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Smile

Today has been a very difficult day. But, I tried to smile. I went to church services and felt overwhelmed with my situation and the profound saddness of love lost. A dear friend came to my aid as I had to leave abruptly before the end. 



God given strength will carry me through. But, the journey will be long. Please, pray for me!

Blessings to all of you on this Beautiful Summer Sunday.





Saturday, June 26, 2010

My Dog Lily - You Are Special

JUST MY DOG

She is my other eyes that can see above the clouds;
my other ears that hear above the winds.
She is the part of me that can reach out into the sea.

She has told me a thousand times over that I am her reason for being;
by the way she rests against my leg;
by the way she thumps her tail at my smallest smile;
by the way she shows her hurt when I leave without her.
She probably worries when she is not along to care for me.

When I am wrong, she is delighted to forgive.
When I am angry, she clowns to make me smile.
When I am happy, she is joy unbounded.
When I am a fool, she ignores it.
When I succeed, she brags.
Without her, I am only another woman.
With her, I am all-powerful.

She is loyalty itself.
She has taught me the meaning of devotion.
With her, I know a secret comfort and a private peace.
She has brought me understanding where before I was ignorant.
Her head on my knee can heal my human hurts.
Her presence by my side is protection against my fears of dark and unknown things.
She has promised to wait for me...whenever...wherever--in case I need her.
And I expect I will--as I always have.

She is just my dog.
 
by Gene Hill
    (modifidied by me to feminine gender)




I love you Lily! 

I hope all of you have a Special Day - and hug the ones you love!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Home Again - Home Again - Jiggity Jig

Nine hotels - Eighteen days - Three countries (Germany, Switzerland and Austria).

Traveling is NOT for "the faint of heart" even in the best of times.


I am safely at home and you will hear from me when I am rested and able to "find my center"!



I think this journey will be similar to childbirth. I eventually will forget the agony and thereafter I will focus on and remember the beautiful experience of foreign travel and all the education that comes with it.  Maybe the saying "Nothing ventured - nothing gained" is applicable at this time.

Perhaps, at a later time when I regain my sense of humor, I will write about "50 Ways To Know A New Relationship".  You know - kinda like, but not exactly, because I was not a mistress, the song "50 Ways to Leave Your Lover" by Paul Simon written in 1975.


On that cheery note. Bye for now. I am going to take another warm jacuzzi bath and nourish my body and soul and give thanks for the ability/strength to leave a very unhealthy and toxic relationship. "Love Isn't Supposed To Hurt."








Happy Father's Day to all the Fathers!

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Some Additional Special Photos

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Mother's Day 2012

Mother's Day 2012

Happy Family (2014)

Happy Family (2014)
Grandma Pride

Valentine's Day 2013

Valentine's Day 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

Bud Mietz

Bud Mietz
1928 - 2014