Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts
Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts

Thursday, January 01, 2015

New Beginnings

I don't think there are very many people that are more happy than I am to be starting a New Year. At least that is what I am thinking at the moment.


- - - - - Even though today has been filled with very highs and very lows associated with the events of the past few days. I am a person that strongly desires harmony and as little conflict in life as possible. Unfortunately, I have been on the receiving end of behaviors and words that are despicable and so preposterous that it leaves my head spinning. I ask for nothing and I really mean nothing - but PEACE.  Just leave me alone to grieve and to have compassion for those who seek less than honorable behaviors and words! Materialism is NOT my game! Please love one another!


My friends (near and far) and the phone have been a tremendous blessing and comfort for me today. THANK YOU - THANK YOU - THANK YOU.

And, I thank God for the strength I have been given to endure the disrespectful and horrendous situation at hand.


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.  Tomorrow is a new and beautiful day!

Mary


Friday, December 05, 2014

Feeling Droopy

Not quite like this - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 


But, more like this - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 


Kinda like one ear down droopy.

Needless to say, I have been on a never stopping circus carousel for weeks.  It's probably more accurate to say almost five years. And, today is a good day to ponder who I am and where I am going. 

The last twenty four hours have been extremely difficult in regards to the excellent medical appointments, the wonderful care at the Retirement Village and the obnoctous abusive behaviour toward others by my friend. His son has been here for which I am grateful. 

This is a good time to put into practice something that I read yesterday.

      "Never miss a good opportunity to shut up!"

So, please sit and visit with me about joyful things and share a cup of Pumpkin Pie Spice coffee. I'll pour another cup. This coffee additive is a little extra treat for me during this challenging time! Extra pampering of myself these days is very nice.


No definitive diagnosis until Tuesday.  

I truly wish you an Excellent Day filled with Kindness and Love. 

                                                   Another coffee?  There is plenty!

Mary  


Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Where Should I Start

The last few days are days that I would NOT like to repeat. Several medical appointments with my friend have been almost daily. He has been seen by the Gastroenterologist, Cardiologist, his G.P. and Hematologist. He is dealing with some very serious issues. He is very weak, not sleeping, no appetite, very low blood pressure and shortness of breath. He  is anemic and is suffering from a shortage of all types of blood cells, red blood cells, white blood cells and platelets. Blood test for hemoglobin should be in normal range around 13.  He was in the hospital Novenber 1st for 4 days at which time his blood count was 7. He was given two blood transfusions and the count came up to 8.1. Yesterday his blood count was 6.6. At 6PM he got a call from the GP and he referred him to the Hospital Emergency Room (45 minute drive) for more blood transfusions. We got to the hospital at 7PM. They were very busy with a lot of patients waiting. He was taken in immediately because of his serious condition. The transfusion wasn't started until sometime after 11PM. It takes a long time to prep the blood. And then they decided to give a second transfusion. The hospital care has been great! By the time we got back it was 4AM, yes 4AM this morning!.

They would have admitted him to the hospital but an appointment was scheduled for today with the Hematologist and if he was an inpatient the appointment would have to be rescheduled. So, today we were back at the hospital again for the appointment by noon. The fact that they do not have a diagnosis makes it next to impossible to have a treatment plan. A bone biopsy (which is quite painful) was recommended and I encouraged him (told him) to have it today (before he could think much about it) and he did. My nursing background has been extremely helpful for which I am thankful.

By this afternoon, his son arrived (3 hour drive) and my friend was admitted to the nearby Retirement Center where he can receive nursing care and not be at home alone, even though that is where he has wanted to be. His son and I have been working on the arrangements so it would only take a phone call and they were ready for him to be admitted in 2 hours. His son is staying in town. It is GOOD.

Along with all of this, for the past week my phone has been in and out of service. I finally borrowed a cell phone because I do not have one - to much money in this area with few cell towers. I was on the phone with Comcast yesterday and again for a half hour at 4:30AM this morning. The problem seems to be with the under house telephone line. There is more about this very annoying problem. But that is it for now.

She just lost Peoria!



And then, my printer jammed with paper tonight and it was a major repair job for me to figure out. But, I did it!



I hope you are All Doing Well.

It's time for me to get some sleep.

Mary


Saturday, October 25, 2014

And Now - Were Was I

Oh yes, Stuck in a Snow Storm on a two lane roadway with my Friend.

I decided that we should just sit in the car for awhile and think, pray and plan. Tow trucks had been called but that wasn't any help for they could not get to us, remember SNOW everywhere. And, it continued to snow more and more.

By now, it was very dark outside. We sat for about 30 minutes and then I decided to try one more time to get out of the side of the road even though the truck in front of me and the one behind me had not been able to get back on the road. I concentrated very hard on accelerating just enough for traction without spinning the wheels. IT WORKED! I had to cross the middle yellow line to get enough traction and then I was able to get back in my lane. My friend was cheering me on which really helped! Their were very few cars moving about. But, there were just enough track marks in the snow for me to use. The many trees along the roadway sheltered the road somewhat from the snow. In my head I can still hear myself saying out loud - We're out! We're out!

The remainder of the trip was very slow and it continued to snow. A road trip that usually takes about 45 minutes to drive, took us about four hours. Many, many people did not get home that night. We were very tired and stressed, but, Oh, so thankful! Eventually the snow stopped but it took days for everything to get back to normal, Whatever Normal Is.

My friend and I shared many experiences together but I believe this was the most remarkable. A lot of them were just FUN, FUN, FUN. I miss her. I am blessed to have had her as my friend!



Mary


Walking Beside Me

My Friend has passed and is no longer in pain and will be reunited with her loved ones who have gone before her. I received the phone call shortly after posting to my blog yesterday. Her family was around her and her final days were peaceful and she was kept comfortable. Words elude me but my emotions are vast.


Sylvia lived a full 79 years of life filled with huge challenges. But, my greatest memory of her is that we "Always had FUN"! Even though we had different viewpoints on many aspects of life we "Just Got Each Other". There was never a time we couldn't share "our secrets" with each other. That kind of a friend does not come around very often.

My most recent vivid memory of our life experiences together was two years ago (2012) after her cancer diagnosis when I took her to the hospital (45 minute drive) for a routine diagnostic test that required light sedation. We needed to be at the hospital early and would not be able to leave until 5 to 6 PM. It was in the month of January during a year that this area experienced an unexpected heavy snow season. Anyway, after we arrived at the hospital and my friend was taken to the back by the nurse and I enjoyed "people watching" and reading a book.

I think it was about 2 PM when snow started to fall and I watched the parking lot and my car from the waiting room window. Soft fluffy white snow flakes were drifting down and the color of the cars and surrounding area was quickly turning white and whiter and whiter! For me, a little snow is fun. But, this was starting to look very daunting to me! Many of the patients were being discharged as their procedures were completed. The snow continued to fall without any interludes from the time of the first falling snow flake.

Now then, I am a California girl with absolutely NO experience driving in the snow. What to do?  Well, do what you have to do, the little voice in my head was saying. Through the years I have learned how to be quite independent out of necessity but this was a FIRST ONE FOR ME.

Walking through several inches of snow with only fair weather shoes I eventually got to my car. Using a scraper that was in my trunk I managed to scrape and scrape snow off of the car and get into the door and slowly, very slowly drive to the hospital discharge door and pick up my friend.

By now, the parking lot was clearing out and a lot of the hospital support staff had been advised to go home. The snow was continuing to get deeper and deeper and I had a horrible time getting out of the parking lot. There were no tire tracks to try to follow. Slip and slide was the name of the game!

We eventually make it to the highway but it took a long time with traffic jams and cars sliding all around. A couple cars made complete circles when their cars started to slide. The traffic signals were of no help! Oh, and I did not have snow tires or chains and most vehicles did not. I crept slowly along the highway like a snake watching as many cars were sliding into the embankments or onto the side of the road. NO SNOW PLOWS!

All seemed to be going along quite well even though my body was getting tenser and tenser. But my friend was able to snack on some banana nut bread that I baked the day before and brought for her because she had not had anything to eat all day because of the medical testing.

By now we were successfully driving slowly along on the two lane road and praying for strength. All of a sudden the road was quite icy and the truck in front of me slid into the snow berm and the truck behind me also. And, then me. After "trying to gather my wits" I made several attemps to get my car back on the road to no avail. By now, it would have been nice to have a restroom nearby to visit!

My friend and I continually talked positively to each other throughout the hours we were trying to get home.

And, tomorrow I will be able to finish this story about ME AND MY FRIEND!

Tell someone special you love them!

Mary


Friday, October 03, 2014

Little Escape Artist

Who would ever think that this "little darling" would think of becoming a little "Houdini"?


Since September 23, Miss Lily has been ill with an intestinal disorder and has been receiving medications to help her regain regular and normal bowel movements. This is in addition to her receiving medication for heart disease which was diagnosed July 22. (Oh, and on July 4, I tripped and fractured my ankle/leg). Lots of fun!

With all of the activities that go along with caring for a sick dog there are unpleasant events (incontinence of bowel and bladder) that are a constant concern in order to keep the dog and house clean. And, since she usually sleeps on my bed at night time, the cleanliness of my bed linens have become an issue. I have had to do laundry on a daily basis for a few weeks along with carpet spot cleaning. 

So anyway, the beginning of this week I decided it was time to confine Lily in a kennel at night time so I would not have to get up with her so often during the night as well as dealing with dirty-wet bed linens.


For years, Lily has been familiar with her kennel which is soft side canvas and with netting. I jokingly call it "The Cube". She is not particularly fond of being in "The Cube" but has always tolerated it. I have used it in motels when traveling on out of town trips. Look how nicely it folds when transporting it.


So, Sunday night I placed "The Cube" in the hallway outside of my bedroom door that I then closed. She whimpered periodically throughout the night and I only got up one time with her during the night. The next night she was quiet and excited to see me in the morning. Wow, a decent night of sleep for me - huge blessing!

And, then, night before last it was the same drill and off to bed I went. It was about 2:30 AM when I heard a noise at my bedroom door. Much to my surprise, it was Lily clawing at the door trying to get into my bedroom. I was so shocked and confused! What in the world was going on? How did she get out of "The Cube". The front flap was closed with the zipper.

My first thought was to look at her kennel. Again, another surprise. There was a hole that was wet around the edges. That "little darling" had chewed a 5 inch long hole along the seam line on the side and managed to get out of "The Cube". Do you see how high up the hole is? She even chewed through the canvas. It was amazing and shocking.


What to do?  I decided to get my trusty duct tape and tape over the hole. It was somewhat dubious if this would remedy the problem. So, back in "The Cube" she went. Not particularly willingly. And, back to bed I went. Not long after, I heard some noise and decided to check things out. And, look what I found! A little Escape Artist!


Again, what to do? First of all. Help her to get out and hold her and give her lots of love. Her little heart was beating so very fast. I have always said that she is a very tenacious little gal, kinda like her human mom. But, I had no idea she was this determined. Poor little gal. Look at the duct tape over her head!

Now what. Well, I had a sturdier and heavier kennel in the garage, but it was 3 o'clock in the morning. OK, it was quite close to the main garage door but to far from the door into the house. So, I tuned the garage light on and pushed the automatic garage door opener wondering if the neighbors would be calling the authorities with suspicion of burglary!  I moved quickly and carried it around to the front door and into the house. Garage door closed and lights off! 



I placed some cozy soft towels in her "new bed" and snuggled her in for the night. All was well and she was quiet throughout the night. 

This is not a battle of the wits. I was only slightly tempted to take her to my bed but then all my hard work at training her to sleep in her own bed would be for not. I am just trying to bring back some normalcy to this home!

And, Lily says she is doing well and she will try to be good.



That little face melts your heart.

Wishing you Restful Nights Of Sleep.

Mary  


Sunday, April 27, 2014

A New Week

We have had a couple days of refreshing rains and I would like to apply that to my life as a metaphor. The past week has been filled with anger, rage, shock, pain and total despair over a situation that is totally unrelated to anything I have ever written about or experienced.

Tomorrow, I will be arranging for some professional help to work through the myriad of emotions I am experiencing. This situation has literally "stopped me in my tracks". I have not done anything at all this week other than go to one medical appointment which meant that I actually had to put clothes on for one day!

It is time to open the window shades and sign up for life again. Even with the rains there are many colors showing up in the garden. Many flowers and plants have drooped their rain laden heads but more blossoms will be popping up. The weather is suppose to be warmer this week and the sun will shine brightly. Sunshine is an excellent medicine for me.

I hope you have a Joyous Sunday and week.

I'll try to check in at least once a week.

Blessings

Mary


Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Who Lives There


That's a very big house sitting on a lot of land complete with horse stables and you name it, it has it.


This is the home of MY TWIN BROTHER in Southern California. Yes, I am a twin. I guess I posted about this in 2009. Just click on this link Twin Brother and scroll to see some childhood photos and a little about the family dynamics.

The last time I saw my twin brother was probably at the memorial service when my mother passed away in 1990 - or maybe it was when my oldest brother passed away after that time. 

It is extremely unfortunate that none of my family members have been close with one another. And, now it is only my twin brother and myself that are left. I have not been to his home. Never been invited. However, he sent me the photo of some of his horses after I called him a couple years ago. I found this photo of his home on the internet in 2009 some time after he bought the place. All three of my brothers were married and had very successful careers in their chosen professions. My twin brother has taken the position of distancing himself from the family as long as I can remember. And, the three brothers never got along. It is my belief that the parenting style had a significant influence on family relationships! My two oldest brothers chose not to have children. That may say something!

For about the last 15 years of my oldest (eight years older) brother's life, he and I became quite close and it was wonderful to have him to talk to and to visit. He lived in Oregon and was a wonderful person. 

Especially, at times like this when I am going through difficult life changes and events it would be so wonderful to have a brother who cared about me. The vast majority of my life I have felt very alone and have been alone.

What's the saying - - - - - - - - -





 And, this is my "Humble Little Abode" for which I am extremely grateful. 
I have worked very hard to obtain and keep my little home. 

(December 2013)

Mary


Saturday, March 03, 2012

Is Something Burning

My laptop may be - - - -

 The hard drive may have crashed and burned! 









Please tell me it isn't so.

Don't you just hate that black screen?

                     I clearly need help!



Please send the Doctor - - -


For the past six weeks I have periodically been working (tinkering) on my laptop trying to get it in working order. I may have just dug myself a deeper hole. I have no idea what to do at this point. I guess it will just have to sit until I can get some professional help. And, I don't know when my budget will permit it.

It is so grand that I have the desktop computer which makes all this less painful.

Send out the fairies with some "fix it" fairy dust!

And, be kind to your computer.

Note: Does this post look like I have too much time on my hands? I don't ~ just having fun!

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Some Additional Special Photos

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Mother's Day 2012

Mother's Day 2012

Happy Family (2014)

Happy Family (2014)
Grandma Pride

Valentine's Day 2013

Valentine's Day 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

Bud Mietz

Bud Mietz
1928 - 2014