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Showing posts with label grief. Show all posts
Showing posts with label grief. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 04, 2015

Staying On My Pathway

Last evening, I attended my group of Grief Recovery. The program is helping me and the the people are wonderful.  It is a good feeling to recognize the positive changes that I see in myself. I believe that getting my blood pressure managed is a huge part of being able to better cope. Also, I have had wonder support from my church, friends and neighbors.


Today was a beautiful sunny warm day. However, a large rain storm is predicted for the weekend. And, that is great because we really need the water. 

I hope your week is going well.

Mary


Thursday, January 22, 2015

What's Happening


Every day is so different from the other. But, the last two days have been good for several reasons. First of all, I think I am getting my blood pressure under control. Last week when I went to urgent care clinic, I was advised that I should go to my Primary Care Doctor.  Wouldn't you know it, at the time of my visit, my blood pressure was normal. However, for the past two months my blood pressure has continually floated around 200/100. My BP monitor records the readings. Needless to say, it has caused me to feel very very ill, especially with all the recent stress. However, I am very blessed to not have had a stroke, especially considering all of the care and support I was providing for my friend prior to his passing! 


For years when I go to the doctor for erratic BP they order a new medication (usually expensive) and reschedule me to return in 30 days. It has been like running in circles and my bank account can not be stretched any further.

So, recently I have studied a lot of the details about the five BP medications currently prescribed for me. And I monitor my BP morning, noon and bedtime, more often if I think necessary. I have made medication adjustments (increased) on some of the current medications and so far I am doing much better. At present time (7 PM) my BP is 145/80-pulse 68. Hope and pray this trend will continue. I have appointment scheduled with Primary Care Doctor to review new lab work and clinical status.


Importantly, I started a new activity on Tuesday evenings. The first meeting of an eight week Grief Recovery Support Group sponsored by Griefshare International started this week. And, it is only four miles from my home. I was very impressed and believe I will benefit greatly by attending.

My church has been providing me with cooked meals as needed and the food has been wonderful. It really is a help when you are not hungry and absolutely everything is too much effort because of weakness and sadness.

But, LOOK, I cooked soup today! Lots of chopping and sauteing. I made a similar Tomato and Bean Soup for us in November for supper.

The kitchen may not get cleaned for a day or two. Oh well!


Take Good Care Of Yourself And Others.

Mary


Thursday, January 01, 2015

New Beginnings

I don't think there are very many people that are more happy than I am to be starting a New Year. At least that is what I am thinking at the moment.


- - - - - Even though today has been filled with very highs and very lows associated with the events of the past few days. I am a person that strongly desires harmony and as little conflict in life as possible. Unfortunately, I have been on the receiving end of behaviors and words that are despicable and so preposterous that it leaves my head spinning. I ask for nothing and I really mean nothing - but PEACE.  Just leave me alone to grieve and to have compassion for those who seek less than honorable behaviors and words! Materialism is NOT my game! Please love one another!


My friends (near and far) and the phone have been a tremendous blessing and comfort for me today. THANK YOU - THANK YOU - THANK YOU.

And, I thank God for the strength I have been given to endure the disrespectful and horrendous situation at hand.


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.  Tomorrow is a new and beautiful day!

Mary


Saturday, October 25, 2014

Walking Beside Me

My Friend has passed and is no longer in pain and will be reunited with her loved ones who have gone before her. I received the phone call shortly after posting to my blog yesterday. Her family was around her and her final days were peaceful and she was kept comfortable. Words elude me but my emotions are vast.


Sylvia lived a full 79 years of life filled with huge challenges. But, my greatest memory of her is that we "Always had FUN"! Even though we had different viewpoints on many aspects of life we "Just Got Each Other". There was never a time we couldn't share "our secrets" with each other. That kind of a friend does not come around very often.

My most recent vivid memory of our life experiences together was two years ago (2012) after her cancer diagnosis when I took her to the hospital (45 minute drive) for a routine diagnostic test that required light sedation. We needed to be at the hospital early and would not be able to leave until 5 to 6 PM. It was in the month of January during a year that this area experienced an unexpected heavy snow season. Anyway, after we arrived at the hospital and my friend was taken to the back by the nurse and I enjoyed "people watching" and reading a book.

I think it was about 2 PM when snow started to fall and I watched the parking lot and my car from the waiting room window. Soft fluffy white snow flakes were drifting down and the color of the cars and surrounding area was quickly turning white and whiter and whiter! For me, a little snow is fun. But, this was starting to look very daunting to me! Many of the patients were being discharged as their procedures were completed. The snow continued to fall without any interludes from the time of the first falling snow flake.

Now then, I am a California girl with absolutely NO experience driving in the snow. What to do?  Well, do what you have to do, the little voice in my head was saying. Through the years I have learned how to be quite independent out of necessity but this was a FIRST ONE FOR ME.

Walking through several inches of snow with only fair weather shoes I eventually got to my car. Using a scraper that was in my trunk I managed to scrape and scrape snow off of the car and get into the door and slowly, very slowly drive to the hospital discharge door and pick up my friend.

By now, the parking lot was clearing out and a lot of the hospital support staff had been advised to go home. The snow was continuing to get deeper and deeper and I had a horrible time getting out of the parking lot. There were no tire tracks to try to follow. Slip and slide was the name of the game!

We eventually make it to the highway but it took a long time with traffic jams and cars sliding all around. A couple cars made complete circles when their cars started to slide. The traffic signals were of no help! Oh, and I did not have snow tires or chains and most vehicles did not. I crept slowly along the highway like a snake watching as many cars were sliding into the embankments or onto the side of the road. NO SNOW PLOWS!

All seemed to be going along quite well even though my body was getting tenser and tenser. But my friend was able to snack on some banana nut bread that I baked the day before and brought for her because she had not had anything to eat all day because of the medical testing.

By now we were successfully driving slowly along on the two lane road and praying for strength. All of a sudden the road was quite icy and the truck in front of me slid into the snow berm and the truck behind me also. And, then me. After "trying to gather my wits" I made several attemps to get my car back on the road to no avail. By now, it would have been nice to have a restroom nearby to visit!

My friend and I continually talked positively to each other throughout the hours we were trying to get home.

And, tomorrow I will be able to finish this story about ME AND MY FRIEND!

Tell someone special you love them!

Mary


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Some Additional Special Photos

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Mother's Day 2012

Mother's Day 2012

Happy Family (2014)

Happy Family (2014)
Grandma Pride

Valentine's Day 2013

Valentine's Day 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

High School (1957) Friends Of Mine On The Left Live In New York and We Met In Canada In 2013

Bud Mietz

Bud Mietz
1928 - 2014